(my need to live an insane life)

This keeps happening for me and it's causing a greater divide.

As I continue to seek out more substantial challenges, I find it harder to relate to others and where my mindset used to be.

I recently came back from a trip to Thailand to test out the digital nomad life with my partner, Mariana. It wasn't just a remote work trip though, we went with the intention to completely overhaul our work which involved testing and starting at least 10 new business ideas, ending with us firing many clients and coming out the other end with a completely reworked productized version of our consulting.

Oh πŸ€” it was also our first major trip together as a couple...

Anytime I tell people this, even the simple version of trying out nomadic work, they tell me that I'm insane β€” which I don't disagree with. ✨I just know it works.✨

😍 Reaping the rewards of 'insanity'

I now have full confidence in our relationship because we got through the most difficult period of my life so far (by far), together. ❀️

She helps shed light on the horrible parts of myself I need to work on to be better.

It sucks.

And I love it.

I leaned into the most stressful and intense period of my career β€” staring into the dark abyss once again β€” and now am able to reap exponential rewards for the courage and trust that it took to get through that period πŸ’°πŸ’°πŸ’°πŸ’°πŸ’°πŸ’°πŸ’°πŸ’°πŸ’°πŸ’°.

Now I've fallen in love with the hard things.

The things that most people call "insane". I've heard it too many times to count.

As a mental health advocate, and someone who's suffered from depression and anxiety, I've never been fond of the negative stories and connotation around the word:



  1. in a state of mind that prevents normal perception, behavior, or social interaction; seriously mentally ill.

🚫 I'm not looking for a normal life, whatever the hell that is.

  1. shocking; outrageous.
    "they were making insane amounts of money"

βœ… Yes, I'd love to live a life that's shocking & outrageous in the best way possible.

"How was it possible for him to create so much art in his lifetime?"

"What did he do to be able to help so many people at his age?"

The answer is in the struggle.

And thanks to so many people who help along the way. βœ¨πŸ™πŸΌβœ¨

😰Is it worth it/let me work it🎢

Don't think that I jump into this without thought or consideration.

Of course, it comes with risks and is not to be taken as a blanket statement. There are countless things I wouldn't do because it doesn't make sense, possibly from the ethics, risk vs. reward, or the probabilities involved.

There's a major difference between working through a peak time of stress, anxiety and challenges within a relationship and being involved in an abusive dynamic.

You have to be aware of that line.

So I'll keep my eyes and vision miles ahead, keep my mind and body here in the moment, and keep analyzing or calculating about the next hard thing.

There will always be one.

And I'm so, so grateful for it.

Inspired by seeing Jessie Reyez at the Montreal Jazz Festival as she tells her story of her own hustle and struggles that got her to that stage. Excited to start making music again 🎡

It's how I know that I'm levelling up (or have the opportunity to).

This is a signal of an investment available to me to put my time, energy and/or money on the line once again to come out the other side in a week, month or year(s) as a better person β€”Β more attuned to my highest self, my ideal life, and my greatest impact on the world.

A test of patience and trust.

So while so many others complain, burn out or throw up their white flags, I will gladly run into the fires of the next greatest challenge. It may take some encouragement or a little time to gather myself at times, but at this point I know (if it's the right thing for me) I will push through.

I hope you do too. ❀️